Ever since we hit 2015 I've been thinking and reflecting on my life. I expected some things to happen in my marriage (like our desire to have a baby), on my family and all the disputes and disappointments, my friends and so on. So this year I chose the word RELATIONSHIP. I want and need to grow my relationships in so many different areas:
My Relationship with GOD
I want a deeper relationship with God, I want to grow and learn and see God how he wants me to see him, as a healer, forgiver, a God of miracles. Last year after ttc for 8 months and having 2 failed IUI's I got so mad at God that I began to question His existence. I struggled with this for 2 months. I still have so much pain deep inside not only because of the fact that I can’t have babies but it goes beyond this situation. I don’t know how to forgive and that’s one thing I’m praying for since day 1 of this New Year.
My Relationship with my HUSBAND
I don’t want to go deep into it because it’s very personal but I want and need to change some areas in our relationship. I realized I haven’t healed completely from the pain they caused me in my previous relationship and I’m bringing it to my marriage. God has given me a very patient man and I’m more than grateful for that. But I want to focus on the word trust when it comes to J. I have been reading The Power of a Praying Wife and so far I have been loving it.
My Relationship with my FAMILY
God knows how I wish we were all closer and we had no drama. And this is coming from close to extended family. I am extremely close to my mother and father. But in the past years I see how disputes has become in to not talking to each other type of relationship between sisters, cousins, aunts and so on. And I want to work on my part to not be this type of a person.
My Relationship with my FRIENDS
Being in a military family it is hard to be “close” to friends. I left behind my friends in Puerto Rico when I relocated to North Carolina. And now I leave my friend for two years to relocate yet again. I want to develop a relationship where they know that even in distance I’m there and that I care. I love them so much and I miss them every day. And I just want to keep in touch weather if it’s by email, mail, social media, etc. I just need to let them know that I’m there.