Monday, November 30, 2015

31 Days of Prayer during Infertility


December is a huge month for both hubs and I.  It is our first IVF Journey. We have been yearning, praying and hopeful for a child ever since we got married.  But it is not up to us but up to God and Doctors.  See God is the God Almighty, our Healer our protector our guide; yet He put doctors in this world to help those in need. 

And since December is our month I wanted to do a 31 Days of Infertility Prayer.  I had found this while reading the Amateur Nester.  I know this will keep me busy and with my faith up and going.  My life is set on God’s purpose and I don’t know if this will work or not.  But whatever the outcome of our first IVF; I know I will be in peace. 

But for now I will be dedicating myself to prayer, peace and trying to be stress free.  I have the slightest clue on what will I be writing these 31 days to bring all these desires to my heart; all I pray for is that this December be the one I will never forget.   

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Thursday, November 26, 2015

Give Thanks


This year I have so many things to give thanks for on this Thanksgiving Day.  There is nothing more pleasant to God than having a grateful heart. 

"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." ~1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Thank you God for my loving husband.
Thank you God for my amazing family.
Thank you God for my angels in Heaven.
Thank you God for my friends through distance.
Thank you God for the opportunity of traveling overseas.
Thank you God for the job opportunity here in Italy.
Thank you God for the amazing people I’ve met in Italy.
Thank you God for giving us the opportunity to afford our first IVF.
Thank you God for the friends I’ve made through this blog.
Thank you God for our unborn children.
Thank you God for the amazing people I’ve met through the ttc community.
Thank you God for teaching me that all we need is You.

May you all have a blessed Thanksgiving full of love and happiness.
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Thursday, November 19, 2015

The Famous Birth Control Pill


Let me begin by simply letting out the fact THAT I HATE BIRTH CONTROL PILLS.  Because I have PCOS my infertility clinic put me on birth control pills for about 3 months.  May I say it has been 3 months of torture.  Now don’t get me wrong I have taken BCP in the past and I do not know if it is because its an Italian brand (which I believe BCP are all the same) but never have I felt this way with them. 

Here are some of the symptoms that I have:

Anxiety attacks = Now I don’t know if it is because my IVF is right around the corner but my hearts starts pounding faster and my chest starts hurting randomly. 

Anger = Yes, I am fighting and get annoyed over any little thing even if my poor fur baby stares at me while I’m cooking and then I get the guilt trip and begin to cry cause I yell at her to leave the kitchen.  I’m literally having WTF moments here.

Loss of Libido (Sex Drive) = I have nothing to say except that it is very very extremely FRUSTRATING.

Remorse = For being such a nagging wife and having an amazing husband that literally ignores me and has the best patience in the whole world.  God loves me!

 Luckily I have 8 remaining pills and it is overrrrr!!! I’m literally dancing over here!  
I know things are not going to get easier I already experienced my sporadic mood swings when we did our IUI’s but I am so ready for this new journey and I have so much faith I just can’t wait for December to be here. I can’t wait for the blessing God has for us.

“Those who sow in tears will reap songs of joy.  He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.” ~Psalm 126:5-6

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Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Countdown: 31 Days

I have never experienced so many mixed emotions at the same time.  I have literally 31 days until we fly to Czech Republic for our first and hopefully only IVF treatment.  This is the first time I have so much faith in not just this clinic or the doctors but in my Lord.  I’ve always said that without God nothing is impossible but my faith was not even close when it comes in trusting the Almighty.  Lately when I’m at home I put YouTube on my computer and start listening to Christian songs or I simply watch Christian movies.  This has brought me so much peace and so much tears hahaha.  Yes, I’ve been nothing but tears lately.  I honestly cannot describe what I’m feeling but I will continue to post as the time continues to approach on this journey.  
In the meantime all prayers I highly appreciated while we wait for God's masterpiece.

"Faith by itself if it is not accompanied by action is dead."
~ James 2:17
  
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Sunday, November 1, 2015

Hello November



Wow!!! This year has been flying literally.  Well let's say hello to November, the month I consider the Holiday Season.  Here are my goals for November in hopes to complete them all.

November Goals
1. Clean out the whole house.
2. Finish Christmas shopping.
3. Ship out presents for hubs family and mine.
4. Lose at least 10 lbs. before December
5. Print out our Christmas postcards and ship them out. (My current weight is 153.2 lbs and my goal is at least to weigh 140 praying for 130 hahaha but I was too lazy and now I just have November to complete me goal.)


6. Put up our Christmas Tree (When I use to live with my parents we would always put up our Christmas tree on Thanksgiving Day and I want to bring in this little tradition to our home since its the first time we will not be traveling for the seasons.)

Lets hope I can complete my November goals!!!

"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans." ~Proverbs 16:3 

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