Well hello!
Remember me? It has been a little
over a year since I’ve posted. I had
decided to take a pause on writing and focus more on the baby making. Unfortunately, that did not go according to
our plans. After 2 failed IVF, 1 failed
FET and 1 failed DE which is equivalent of 6 lost embryos, we have decided to
take a pause and let God and life work according to what is best for me. This journey has been full of heartbreaks and
too many tears. Three years that we spent
in Italy in which we did not focus in anything other than TTC. Therefore, it is time to let go, move on, and
make the best out of everything.
Now I want to focus in MY life! I was so busy in trying to make this baby
making work, making everyone happy except myself. And now that I realized how lost from my own
self I was, how I became this person I could not even recognize I felt the need
to begin all over again. Now I’m going
to focus in falling in love with myself all over again. I don’t want to be this angry and bitter
person; I want to have a relationship with myself I NEED to have a relationship
with myself.
I cannot predict my future; I cannot predict my trials
and successes. But I sure can finally begin to live the shit out of my
day. The beauty out of all this… I have
made amazing friends that has been there for more, wiped my tears and just listen
to all the bullshit that comes out of my mouth without judging. My mother always told me to live my life with
joy no matter what and that’s definitely what I’m going to start doing. Because I DESERVE IT I deserve to be happy.
Here
are some pics on what has been going on in my life for that past year.
Wine Time
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