My sisters and the majority of my family know me well, they know how much I love to write, I had a notebook of poems written by me and I also had a diary where I would write every detail of my life (and oh boy I got in trouble plenty of times) lol. Anyway, I wrote a while back a letter to my unborn future baby. The day I wrote this I poured my heart out, and as I wrote it tears would come down. But anyway I thought I would share this in my blog. Please excuse my errors if any. This letter was written in Spanish and I translated it. It took me a while so that it can come out good.
At this point I may say that I’m anxiously waiting for you. I don’t know if you will be conceived by me or if you will be conceived by someone else. Sometimes I’m as positive as any believer in Christ, others I’m just angry, disappointed or crying. What helps me throughout these difficult times is your daddy. He is the most positive man I have ever met. And believe me he desired you as much as I do.
We have been trying on our own for over a year and we decided that it is time to take new alternatives since we are in our 30’s. We don’t want you to think we are your grandparent’s lol.
So, I just want you to know that I love you and I will always love you. It doesn’t matter if I get to conceive you or if you are conceived by someone else I will love you forever. And daddy and mommy will try to be the best parents for you. I pray and I’m literally begging for you my little angle. And I can’t wait for that day that I can have you in my arms and I can protect you, I can teach you how to give your first steps and of course how to say mommy first. Then you can say daddy lol.
Just so you know you will be so proud of your daddy, because he is a soldier that protects our country. I am honored to call him my husband. And well you will be delighted to have me as your mommy because I am beautiful, intelligent and a hard worker.
Sometimes I picture you having those beautiful freckles that your daddy has, with beautiful red hair and my big eyes. I have secretly named you because we already have picked out the name you will have if you are a boy or a girl.
I really hope I get to meet you soon, I hope that you become a dream come true, because between you and me, you are always in my thoughts.