IUI #2 and the draining 2 week wait

I had promised myself I would not tell anyone that I would do another IUI, this time I wanted to keep it to myself, my husband and God.  Reality is yes I know there are people out there that don’t care for my pain, that may only wish me bad luck, might pity me; but then there’s those that give me comfort, a word of wisdom, pray for me and help me keep my faith lifted.  So I decided not to keep it a secret. 

It’s been 6 days since I had my second IUI procedure and we are now on the draining two week wait.  Those ladies that have had this procedure done know how exhausting and anxious this wait can be.  Comparing this second IUI to my first I have more symptoms I believe it might be the difference from the trigger shot.  For my first IUI we used Ovidrel and my only symptoms with this medication was a little bit bloated, cramps (for 2-3 days), and tender breasts; this ended up in a BFN.  For this second procedure we used Novarel and they symptoms for this one is cramps, nausea, tender, enlarged, tingling breasts and I’m extremely bloated. 

So here we are 6 days into the two week wait; I’m basically half way done.  This time I was determined not to think about it all the time, but it’s all I can think about!  I am trying to keep myself distracted – I am extremely happy knowing this upcoming week we will be in Puerto Rico with our family; I know this will help keeping my mind occupied. 

I will be testing in Puerto Rico, I told myself (yes I talk to me lol) that I will not cry if I am not pregnant.  But come on I know for a fact that I am lying to myself.  I try to remind myself that this was a great cycle for us (four follicles, millions of swimmers).  Be in the end, all I can say is that I’m trying as hard as I can not to lose hope, to keep my faith going letting God do a miracle in my body.  

I know I will be a mother some day.