Have you ever felt frustrated, angry & hopeless? Well, that’s how I’m feeling right now. I remember in December declaring 2014 as my year, our year, the year where we would become parents. And I know we are only in February and that we have month ahead of us. But in this road of infertility believe me it’s hard not to lose faith. I’m not going to lie, I’m writing this post at work with tears wanting to come down and I’m trying to hold myself and be strong.
Story is on December while I was on vacation I went to my OBGYN in Puerto Rico. He ran blood test on me and since I was missing three months without my period he prescribed Provera to jumpstart it. Then after my cycle day (CD) #5 I would start taking 50mg of Clomid. He gave me a round of 4 treatments (4 months).
Clomid Cycle #1 My CD#1 was on January 21st and I took Clomid on January 25th through January 29th. I did everything just as directed by Dr. G (my gyno) and I was so excited because I had faith that this treatment would actually work. And I know I have until April with these pills but oh God this is so depressing. One thing is for sure at least I know I ovulated. I still haven’t got my period (I’m sporadically spotting very light since yesterday which would make it CD#30) I’ve heard of other cases in which CD can be on the 34th Day.
Now what’s even more frustrating from all this (and it may sound a little selfish on my behalf) is that the hubs was tested and he is perfectly fine. And on the other hand I’m also happy because at least is not both and I know I KNOW for a fact that God has something beautiful for us. In the meantime I guess I would just have to wait, have patience and pray.
Negative side of the Clomid:
1. Baby dancing (sex) is scheduled (and what fun is that)
2. These sporadic mood swings are killing me (and it’s killing the hubs – thank God for his
3. Breast tenderness is the worst pain ever (even the water from the shower hurts)
One thing I have to be thankful for and that is the amazing hubs that I have, the unconditional love he has for me, the patience, I mean this man deserves a trophy, also the support of my family and my best friend. Without these people I don’t know where I would be right now.
In everything give thanks ~ Thes. 5:18