Have you ever felt frustrated, angry & hopeless? Well, that’s how I’m feeling right now. I remember in December declaring 2014 as my
year, our year, the year where we would become parents. And I know we are only in February and that
we have month ahead of us. But in this
road of infertility believe me it’s hard not to lose faith. I’m not going to lie, I’m writing this post
at work with tears wanting to come down and I’m trying to hold myself and be
strong.
Story is on December while I was on vacation I went to my
OBGYN in Puerto Rico. He ran blood test
on me and since I was missing three months without my period he prescribed
Provera to jumpstart it. Then after my cycle
day (CD) #5 I would start taking 50mg of Clomid. He gave me a round of 4 treatments (4
months).
Clomid Cycle #1 My CD#1 was on January 21st and I
took Clomid on January 25th through January 29th. I did everything just as directed by Dr. G
(my gyno) and I was so excited because I had faith that this treatment would
actually work. And I know I have until
April with these pills but oh God this is so depressing. One thing is for sure at least I know I ovulated. I still haven’t got my period (I’m
sporadically spotting very light since yesterday which would make it CD#30) I’ve
heard of other cases in which CD can be on the 34th Day.
Now what’s even more frustrating from all this (and it may
sound a little selfish on my behalf) is that the hubs was tested and he is
perfectly fine. And on the other hand I’m
also happy because at least is not both and I know I KNOW for a fact that God
has something beautiful for us. In the
meantime I guess I would just have to wait, have patience and pray.
Negative side of the Clomid:
1. Baby dancing (sex) is scheduled (and what fun is that)
2. These sporadic mood swings are killing me (and it’s killing the hubs –
thank God for his
patience)
3. Breast tenderness is the worst pain ever (even the water from the
shower hurts)
One thing I have to be thankful for and that is the amazing hubs
that I have, the unconditional love he has for me, the patience, I mean this
man deserves a trophy, also the support of my family and my best friend. Without these people I don’t know where I
would be right now.
In everything give thanks ~ Thes. 5:18
Totally feel your pain in so many ways!! Ny husband is all good too, good sperm and no other issues. It is a good thing though. I also understand the effects of all those hormones, its such an emotional roller coaster!! Keep your chin up!
ReplyDeleteHi Melina! One thing that helps out with bb tenderness that I found was wearing sports bra's on the most sensitive days. It offers more support and I found that wearing one at night, I wasn't as tender the next day. Hope this tip helps!
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